What about ME???

So, after 23 long years, I'm very used to not standing out. I've never gotten alot of attention from anyone. Not friends, teachers, or even family. I'm also very used to never getting what I want or sometimes even deserve outta life. But there comes a point in everyone's life that they get fed up. Appearently I'm the only one who cares about my wedding (aside from Seth). No one wants to help out with the planning, or even help pay for it. I know that the Bride's father is supposed to pay for most of it, but HELLO, I don't have a father. I've gotten to the point where I don't even want to get married anymore. I'm so frusterated with everything and everyone. I know that I'm not anyone's favorite person, but it would be nice if someone remember that I existed once in a while....

searching for help!!

I try not to complain too much about my life. But sometimes it gets the best of me. My tag has been expired for 5 months now. I can't get it registared in Texas becuase my mother never got a clean title for it once it was paid off. Now I have a title with a bank that isn't even around anymore. I could still renew it in Kansas if I had the money. But lucky me, my other half is still sick, (disablity turned him down) and I can barely pay rent and utilities. Forget about having money for food or gas. I am super stressed out, and don't know what else to do...So I'm giving up...whatever happens, happens...
OH and on top of all of this, I can't get a grant for school because of a loan I took out to pay for the last school...I never got a letter saying "hey, pay us". so it's been defaulted and I can't get anyone at that school to call me back...